My Manic Life.

I'm not sure whether I should describe myself, or what this Tumblr is going to be about, so I guess I'll do a touch of both...

I'm Rio, I'm female, 19 and bisexual. I'm engaged and live with my fiancé Jonny and our 5 Chihuahuas. I live in the UK, but I use a lot of 'Americanisms', they're easier to type usually.

I have Bipolar 2 RC, GAD and contamination based OCD - I'm a 'hand washer'. I self harm and have done so for going on 9 years now. I'm currently totally housebound due to Agoraphobia (18 months and counting since I last went out). I also have a history of Eating Disorders (Anorexia and Bulimia - Purging Type), substance abuse (I'm diagnosed as 'Alcohol Dependant'), plus sexual abuse and a host of other things explained in my posts. ***NOTE - I'm currently in the process of being re-diagnosed and having some existing disorders tweaked. Please bear with me/my blog while it all gets sorted!***

This 'micro blog' is a mish mash of my feelings, thoughts, experiences, my past, present and maybe a little about my future too.

This is about my journey to achieve good mental health and if you want to, you are more than welcome to join me on my way...

Shall we begin?

Key -
Currently mid transfer, details to come.
??? = Therapist.
??? = Psychiatrist.
Peter = Former Therapist and Support Worker.
Dr Kelly = Former Psychiatrist.
EDC = East Dene Centre - The CMHT clinic I'm with, now under the 'Intensive Team'.
IT = Intensive Team (see above.)
St. Johns = Old clinic, when I was under CAMHS and lived in Nottinghamshire.

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I may be back soon, I don’t know for sure but so much has changed…

theselovelyybones:

the-absolute-best-posts:

welc0me-tohell:

This is my dog, Lily. My sister and I bought her, without my dads permission and brought her home as a puppy about a year ago. My dad hates her, but me & my 2 sisters love her to death. This dog helps me cope with my depression and shes always great company to my sisters and I. My dad describes her as “tolerable.” Today, after having this dog for over a year, my dad is saying she needs to go, while he is angry at us for bringing her home, she has become part of the family and we can’t get rid of her, it’s too painful. After begging my dad for a while, he was still stuck on getting rid of her. I mentioned tumblr as a final option, and surprisingly he agreed to it. If I can get 200,000 notes by the end of July, we can keep her. He thinks it’s impossible, but I have faith. I’ve seen tumblr do it before. Please guys help me, I love this dog more than myself. Please oh please :c 

ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS BETTER REBLOG THIS

My dad gave away my dog once so I know how this girl is feeling. Everyone needs to reblog this I don’t want her to go through what I did.

buzzfeed:

George Takei responds to “traditional” marriage fans. 

Hero diva right there. George Takei you beautiful, sassy man <3

amethyst-salt:

THE ANONYMOUS COMPLIMENT PROJECT
*it won’t show up on your blog so don’t delete or else an elephant will pour ice cold water on your pretty hair*
hey loves, reblog this cute elephant turning into a little girl for a cute anon message!
there is no limit
it’s sweet for you to follow me if you reblog but not necessary :) 
no likes :/ unless you’re on post limit and would like to book mark
this post will not go down until wednesday april 3rd 8:00 PM north american eastern time
ALL OF YOU WILL RECEIVE A LOVELY ANON MESSAGE 
please reblog, I want everyone to just have an anon message. It will not be something simple like “you are so pretty” it will honestly be beautiful and something personal.
Do not reblog after april 3rd 8:00, I will check and make sure. 
All will be done, but please don’t pester me unless you feel that it’s been too long. I have things and problems and as much going on as you do so don’t ask me when it will be there.
pleeeeasse reblog! I want to make someone’s day, like so many anons have made mine!! :) 

amethyst-salt:

THE ANONYMOUS COMPLIMENT PROJECT

*it won’t show up on your blog so don’t delete or else an elephant will pour ice cold water on your pretty hair*

hey loves, reblog this cute elephant turning into a little girl for a cute anon message!

there is no limit

it’s sweet for you to follow me if you reblog but not necessary :) 

no likes :/ unless you’re on post limit and would like to book mark

this post will not go down until wednesday april 3rd 8:00 PM north american eastern time

ALL OF YOU WILL RECEIVE A LOVELY ANON MESSAGE 

please reblog, I want everyone to just have an anon message. It will not be something simple like “you are so pretty” it will honestly be beautiful and something personal.

Do not reblog after april 3rd 8:00, I will check and make sure. 

All will be done, but please don’t pester me unless you feel that it’s been too long. I have things and problems and as much going on as you do so don’t ask me when it will be there.

pleeeeasse reblog! I want to make someone’s day, like so many anons have made mine!! :) 

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rosettes:

Six websites I go to when I am upset: 

1) When I am disgruntled 

2) When I need a quiet place 

3) When I want everything to be okay

4) When I need a hug

5) Just click this. 

6) When I need to calm down. 

Number four made me tear ♡ These are the most lovely and amazing and perfect websites on the internet, I swear.

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theatomicboom:

ok you know what scotland where do you get off having all this cool shit and hot people and kilts and stuff

because look at these fucking things

THESE ARE FAIRY POOLS, YOU CAN FIND THEM IN THE ISLE OF SKYE AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

THEY’RE GORGEOUS

SCOTLAND STOP HOLDING OUT ON ME HERE

If I could live there, I think I’d finally be happy.

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When your heart says yes and your head says no…

bathsabbath:

Always reblog this. A lot of the animals they kill (and they kill over 95% of the animals they take in at their Virginia Headquarters) are killed within 24 hours. Not nearly enough time to deem whether an animal is adoptable or not. They even bought a giant fridge to store the corpses!

       PETA is a corporation. Not a charity.  Less than 1% of their 32 Million+ annual budget actually goes to directly helping animals. Most of it is spent making sexist/racist/ domestic abuse supporting commercials that won’t even air on television, giving bail outs to convicted arsonists and criminals, hiring/supporting any celebrity that claims to be vegetarian for five minutes, creating campaigns to target children (“Your mom kills animals”), fruitless lawsuits like suing Sea World for violating the constitution, and most recently, making porn. I’m not against porn, but I fail to see how it fucking helps animals. 

PETA does not give a shit about animals.

Plus, these assholes have the gall to insult Steve Irwin.

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Today has gone from bad to worse. It’s 5am and I’m lying freezing my ass off in the spare bedroom, burrowed into the admittedly huge ironing pile, in an attempt to stay warm. This is my safe room, I hide away in here when shit gets bad. Well, shit is bad.